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Kita Ibarat Pinggan

My mama sent me a forwarded email. This is it:

KITA IBARAT PINGGAN

Andaikan 3 individu berbeza meminjam sebiji pinggan daripada Kita.. Selang beberapa tempoh masa, individu pertama memulangkan pinggan tersebut dalam keadaan bersih cantik tanpa sebarang kecacatan.. Lalu Kita pun terus meletakkannya di atas rak pinggan mangkuk seperti keadaan asalnya..

Individu kedua pula memulangkan pinggan tersebut dlm keadaannya yang masih kotor; tidak berbasuh.. Pinggan tersebut akan Kita basuh sehingga bersih, kemudian barulah ianya diletakkan di tempat yg sepatutnya..

Individu ketiga pula memulangkan pinggan tersebut dalam keadaan pecah bersepai.. Tidak boleh dibezakan lagi bentuknya antara pinggan mahupun serpihan kaca.. Tiada nilainya lagi.. Kita tiada pilihan lain selain menghumbankannya ke dlm tong sampah yg hina..

Begitulah jua halnya dgn Allah Taala.. Jika Kita kembali kepadaNya dalam keadaan bersih, elok, tanpa kekotoran dosa, maka Allah akan terus meletakkan Kita di tempat yang baik Dan tempat yg selayaknya bagi Kita.. Iaitu syurga..

Namun jika Kita kembali ke hadratNya dlm keadaan kotor dgn dosa, Allah akan 'basuh' Kita sebersih-bersihnya di dlm api neraka sebelum memasukkan Kita ke dlm syurga..

Tetapi jika Kita kembali kepadaNya dlm keadaan yg rosak imannya, sehingga tidak dpt dibezakan antara iman dengan kufur, maka Allah tidak akan teragak2 utk menghumbankan Kita ke dlm neraka jahannam yang hina buat selama-lamanya, ibarat pinggan yg pecah; tiada nilai lagi..

Semoga bermanfaat...

some cute pics

viva..

no, its not about my car... sadly.

am gonna present my thesis this saturday!~ OMG. can't believe it. hehehe... i've been reading a lot for the sake of my thesis. but its fun. i enjoy doing it. there are lots of things that i gained. i spent days n weeks in the library (cos i'm doing a library research). phew... it's not easy. my eyes are tired and my body is aching..

the title of my final project is "Integrating Emotional Intelligence in Classroom Management: Malaysian Secondary School Context." soooooooo.. I learned a lot about my own behaviour and teenage behaviour.. hm, I suggest those of u who are interested in the brain matter to look at EI. it's interesting..

hmm, anyway, wish me luck for my viva!~


ta~

happy halloween!~

tang ada2 jak wish urang happy halloween... raya sik wish pun.. hehe...

neway.. yajak.. malas mok taep pjg2.

isok g PNM.. mudahan jakkkkk..

ta~

exam

to friends

when it is time to call a friend a "friend"

i received a call.

its funny. i mean, after all these years, and after what had happened to me, i learn not to depend on others. i can just live without having anybody to go out with and i'm amazed by how many people who can't do that.

there was one time when there's a friend who kept on coming to me when s/he had a problem. after that, s/he just left. and when i was having a huge problem, s/he wasn't keen to be there to listen to me. but then, i don't mind.. i mean, its all in the past. but, i can never forget that. i'll forgive but not forget. i'm happy anyway, that i was once there for someone when s/he needed me.

you see, sometimes, you get tired of that constant wallow and u feel like u want to run away from the one who complaints. yet.... don't u remember, u were once that same person?

i remember myself being a 24-hour whiner. dats why, until now, i still remember how it feels to be in a deep problem. it doesn't matter how long i had to listen to that someone, (unless i have to pee or alike), i'll just listen. and i can't believe it when that person who used to be a major whiner said s/he can't stand listening to someone else's prob.

i remember when afiq told me about friendship. he hates it when a friend merajuk because s/he doesn't get his attention. s/he isn't his ONLY friend. if u have 100 friends, do u think u cud go around and entertain everybody? so.. what's up with being kecil hati for that?

i did complain when someone come to me just when they need me. but not all the time. i do feel tired sometimes. and i realize that when i typed this on the blog, maybe even more people will not come to me because i just "complained". and even more people will judge me... and and and... i'll be far more distant to everybody that i used to know or who used to know me.

hmmm... but i really really wanna include two names that i feel tooo much blessed for having the chance to know them. i don't know why... although i didn't treat them right, and didn't give them the time to celebrate friendship with me, i'm happy to know them. these two girls who have been my faithful readers, though i feel guilty that i rarely talk to them now... i believe they still read my blog and keep on checking.. for years, they just read in silent. didn't intrude me with questions, and all the time it was positive remark. thank you, HAI and NANA.

i don't know why these two girls keep on reading my blog. i don't feel there is a need to read this blog anymore. but hey, i want them both to know that, when i write this blog, i feel like talking to them. i know we didn't talk or text or chat at all nowadays. but, if i can claim what kind of people or listeners u shud turn to, they are the best duo NUR. hahahahaha...

when i look at this picture, i try to imagine HAI and NANA in a Hollywood-like girls.
btw, girls, u guys are fabs in anyway u are!!! God bless u!!~~

blah~

p.s. i think i'm gonna reactivate my blog. stay tuned!